i knew if i stayed.....

i knew if i stayed
i would only
be in your way
so i'll go - but i know
i'll think of you
every step of the way

bittersweet memories
that is all i'm taking with me -
so, goodbye - please, don't cry
we both know
i'm not what you need...

love more than love...

We
loved
with
a
love
that
was
more
than
love.

into the shadows...

with you...

and he said to her:

What can I hold you with?
I offer you lean streets, desperate sunsets, the
moon of the jagged suburbs.
I offer you the bitterness of a man who has looked
long and long at the lonely moon.
I offer you my ancestors, my dead men, the ghosts
that living men have honoured in bronze:
my father's father killed in the frontier of
Buenos Aires, two bullets through his lungs,
bearded and dead, wrapped by his soldiers in
the hide of a cow; my mother's grandfather
--just twentyfour-- heading a charge of
three hundred men in Peru, now ghosts on
vanished horses.
I offer you whatever insight my books may hold,
whatever manliness or humour my life.
I offer you the loyalty of a man who has never
been loyal.
I offer you that kernel of myself that I have saved,
somehow --the central heart that deals not
in words, traffics not with dreams, and is
untouched by time, by joy, by adversities.
I offer you the memory of a yellow rose seen at
sunset, years before you were born.
I offer you explanations of yourself, theories about
yourself, authentic and surprising news of
yourself.
I can give you my loneliness, my darkness, the
hunger of my heart;
I am trying to bribe you
with uncertainty, with danger, with defeat.

and she said to him:
i'll take it...

FAMILY FUN ON THE WAY...

JUST FYI - i'll be in and out, more out, probably, than in the next week, beginning today - daughter and her clan coming up from louisiana for a week's visit - should be here tomorrow - but i'll be checking things whenever possible - don't want to miss A SINGLE POST - peace - jenean

hither, my love...

hither my love!
here i am! here!
with this just-sustain'd note
i announce myself to you -
this gentle call is for you, my love -
for you!

only of you...

...my heart beats
through my entire body...
conscious only of you...

la mia passione

vieni da me

the confession...

...i confess what you already know,
what you knew from the very first and
from moment to moment
through all its changes...but it will
relieve me to tell you how
my love has greatened...when first
i broke the silence...oh, believe me,
believe me, i loved you then,
but i loved you so much
less than now,
because i did not know
how much greater you
were then
as now...

Je rêve de vous...

je pense à vous

the kiss...

May I kiss you then?
On this miserable paper?
I might as well
open the
window
and
kiss
the
night
air.”

- franz kafka -

hunger...

hunger

moontouch...

i touched the moon last night
it felt like
you

the love child...

Love can transpose
to form and dignity.
Love looks not with the eyes,
but with the mind;
And therefore is wing'd Cupid painted blind.
Nor hath love's mind of any judgment taste;
Wings and no eyes figure unheedy haste:
And therefore is love said to be a child,
Because in choice he is so oft beguil'd...

la nostra passione ci annega...

amore mio

the bridge...

i know
you
remember when
we first crossed the bridge
as do i...

the promise -

in dreams...

Come to me in the silence of the night;
Come in the sparkling silence of a dream;
Come with soft rounded cheeks and eyes as bright
As sunlight on a stream;

Come back in tears,
O memory, hope, love of finished years.
O dream how sweet, too sweet, too bitter sweet,
Whose wakening should have been in Paradise,
Where souls brimfull of love abide and meet;
Where thirsting longing eyes
Watch the slow door
That opening, letting in, lets out no more.

Yet come to me in dreams, that I may live
My very life again though cold in death:
Come back to me in dreams, that I may give
Pulse for pulse, breath for breath:
Speak low, lean low,
As long ago, my love, how long ago.

i vedremo nei miei sogni , amore mio

In dreams I walk with you.
in dreams I talk to you.
In dreams you're mine.
all of the time we're together
In dreams, in dreams.
...Its too bad that all these things
can only happen in my dreams
Only in dreams in
beautiful
dreams...

on words defined...

fervent - adj.
characterized by intense emotion; ardent love; an ardent lover; a torrid love affair

unbridled - adj.

(of feelings or behaviour) not restrained or controlled in any way: unbridled passion

impetuous - adj.

1. characterized by sudden and forceful energy or emotion; impulsive and passionate.

2. having or marked by violent force: impetuous, heaving waves.

passionate - adj.

1. showing intense sexual desire

2. capable of or revealing intense emotion: a passionate dialogue

flaming - adj.

1. on fire; ablaze.

2. intense; ardent: flaming passions.

yesterday today tomorrow...

I seem to have
loved you
in numberless forms,
numberless times,
in life after life,
in age after age forever.

i would rather have
thirty minutes of wonderful
than a
lifetime
of
nothing special -

la mia bella Gunnar -

my beautiful gunnar -
my thoughts
my dreams
my days
my nights
are consumed
with the
essence
of
you -

the birth of love...

the key...

FORGIVENESS
is
the key that
unlocks the DOOR
of resentment
and
the handcuffs
of
hate -
it is a
POWER
that BREAKS THE CHAINS
of
bitterness
and the
shackles
of
selfishness-

completely incomplete...

my
life
is
no
longer
complete -
without
u
without
us
all
that
remains
is
but
a
sliver -

what to do...

what am i going to do with you?

what are we going to do next?

peace versus chaos

i'm trying
to find
inner peace and harmony -
but i find only
chaos ambivalance and lust -

- so do i -

my heart cannot forget...

l'innerno deue essere freddo per
quelli senza le memorie calde -
che' viaggo cosmico glorious,
vincent dorato bello -
il mio cuore non
si dimentichera mai -

sempre - j

il mio magnifico stallone

to love and leave...

if you ever want or need
i will leave and never come back
you would do that for me?
yes
why?
because i do not want to ever
cause you consternation
i never want to cause you hurt
or to cause you pain -
if you look me in the eyes
right this minute and
tell me to leave
i will
and
i will never come back
i can't do that
i know but if you "need" me to
i will
you would?
yes
thank you for saying that
it means so much to me -