unfulfilled love - unrequited love - love relinquished - life unlived...

we all are gypsies of a sort wandering traveling through this life other lives space and time here there and yon on roads less traveled - this is a written and visual journal of my own travels - imagined and/or real - come along with me - we'll dance among the stars under the sun and over the moon - we'll share our stories of love around the campfire - come along -

poetry from the heart...


POETRY FROM THE HEART - my own words dedicated to all the words left unspoken, the acts left undone - the love unlived unfulfilled -

i dance with you...only in dreams...

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Saturday, July 31, 2010

the pretender...

she crept through all the motions
casting aside her burning emotions
day after day and night after night
fighting her cares with all her might

she dressed for the eyes of others
tho she’d clothe not at all given her druthers
shimmering gown and sparkling jewels
all adorned for the judging fools
   
if only they knew what they could not see
for deep down inside was a screaming banshee
but what could they know of love so true
which to them was only a torrid taboo

and so it was that she went moment by moment
pretending without a hint not even a glint
living a lie lying to live unable to forgive
her heart breaking bleeding like a sieve

passion unbridled soul on fire
all for a love she n’er could acquire

Thursday, July 29, 2010

things...


see beneath the surface of things
things bound in gossamer wings
beneath the surface of my heart
where your love starts

things not yet floated to the top
how will they know when to stop
broken free broken loose
your love did me seduce

things held back held under
throwing all my fears asunder
all those things set free
letting me be me

things
suppressed
repressed

‘til
there
was
you

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

blood red moon...


blood red moon
in midnight black
touching you
touching me

blood in the moon
love gone too soon
tears in my heart
why did we part

blood red moon
in velvet light
kissing you
kissing me

blood in the moon
cries love’s tune
sadness to stay
and we both pay

wish i might
have my wish
come true this night
of

blood red moon

Monday, July 26, 2010

feel so lost...


feel so lost
can’t see
outside of me
through the dark
hole in my heart
feel so lost
can’t see
inside of me
try as i might
can’t find the light
feel so lost

Sunday, July 25, 2010

on golden shores...



































 i slept once more
in dreams of you
slept once more
on golden shores
where words and thoughts
can 'neer be done 
and must instead
be ignored

Friday, July 23, 2010

the cleansing...


no matter what she tried and tried
her heart from inside out had cried

but from herself she could not hide

then she felt the sound of her tears
struggling to drown the ghosts of her fears
keeping them with her always near

sorrow trickling down her face
washing away love’s lost grace
leaving her soul without a trace

Thursday, July 22, 2010

without you...
































how can that be
don’t you see
we were what love is supposed to be

there is no substitute
my heart is now destitute
 
without you

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

the snow tiger...


he had thought that he was safe
there in his forest of ice
he’d left the world of light and warmth behind
choosing instead a life of dark and cold
he had feared the heat of the other world
feared it with a passion most never know
feared it as most would love their mates
but fear it he did -

for he was
the snow tiger 

he’d painted his hard lean body
in stripes of shadows and light
the black of black the white of white
he’d painted it like the stripes on the trees
with their ribbons of frost
not to be seen by day or by night

and so he lived in the vast wasteland of steel and cold
there he’d worked feverishly to uphold
never allowing another in
guarding the glacier that was all him
never leaving the safety of his self-made lair

he’d thought that he was happy there
that he was safe
but only one as frigid as he could survive such a place
there was no nourishment to be found in the arctic woods

he hunted here he hunted there he hunted everywhere
but the gnawing hunger remained
it gnawed through his belly and into his cold dark heart
leaving a hole that could not be filled
and soon he knew there was nothing left
in his forest to be hunted - to be consumed -
to ease the pain of his hunger as it grew
the hunger he had felt before
but which now became a ravishing sword

and then one day at the forest edge
as he crept closer and closer still
there stood a vision he ne’er had seen before
but one he feared nevertheless -
he feared to the bottom of his lonely soul
and knew in his gut that this vision meant danger
danger to him and to all that was his

the vision remained - there it stood -
starring straight into the windows of his barren soul
something familiar something once known
or maybe just a dream
but no - it was a mortal creature the vision he feared
a mortal creature with long dark hair that softly swept
the snow beneath her human feet

the sight of this mortal soul struck a chord of primal fear
her haunting black eyes never left his icy stare
her scent attacked the spirit he’d long forgot
he thought perhaps she was just a gentle breeze
blown by the dusty figments of his empty imagination
for the trees in his forest had long since lost their leaves

he could not strike and he could not flee
he was transfixed frozen in her light
and what of that light - it was not white, that must be it
this light - this unpure light - emitted something evil - something sinister
it had color - and that evil that he most feared - 
the one her light emitted
to the gods he implored - not this not this - this he could not survive
this would surely kill him - this - this was his most dreaded enemy
this was warmth!  life, even!  life, with passion!

and in that moment of time stood still
the she-creature fearing not his warrior stance
edged closer and closer again
moving toward him toward all that was his
he roared at her from the icy lobes of his fractured heart
threatening threatening again
but she did not fear him she did not retreat
closer still she edged into his sacred trees

her smell permeated deeper still
leaving his core needing more
his mind abandoned him
he could not think as before
and he knew that she brought with her
weapons the likes of which he’d never dreamed
and then his great claws began to lose their grip
their grip no longer holding to the frozen ground now turned liquid

her eyes never left his stare as she came toward him
bringing with her a strange never before felt sensation
it was foreign to him it burned his eyes attacked his nostrils flared
and invaded that secret part of him long held captive by the cold
this light that surrounded her now surrounded him
what could it be
his worst fear brought to reality?
what could it be?  who could she be?  who was she?
this mortal who walked in light and warmth and color

this light that once attacked his senses
somehow now seemed to ease the ravaging pit of his hunger
further and further she encroached
it seemed her odour ate at him it conquered advancing ever more

the light and the warmth that was her invaded even deeper
deeper into the darkest recesses surging but never retreating
until it reached the stalwart chambers of his heart of stone
seeping down into the crevasse of cold that had been his life
it left him dizzy it left him alive

then he realized that thing - the thing that she brought with her -
that light and warmth thing - it was something he almost remembered
from the other world - something he need not fear 
something that could be cherished, even -

 it was a thing called

love

and this other thing, this she-creature - 
this mortal whom he had first feared
he remembered her now, too
from once before in the land of light and warmth
yes
he remembered her now - 

she was the gypsywoman-

she had traveled far suffered much to reach him 
to save him from the ravages of his own frost
from the hunger that consumed him

she had come from the other world  

and she had come

for

him

Monday, July 19, 2010

and love takes flight...


listen to the beat of the rhythmic drums
feel the heat of the guitars strum
cast your eyes into the dark
the darkest part of your passion’s heart
then look at me feel your spirit rise
kiss my lips and spread my thighs
we’re gonna ride the night’s last light
till mornin’ comes and love takes flight

true blue, baby...


























lovin' you true blue
baby
is all i wanna do

Saturday, July 17, 2010

the gypsy weeps...



her eyes in midnight velvet
black jet tamed by no man yet

soft breasts of alabaster silk
with skin like soft creamy milk

her hair spread like raven wings
when she speaks the gods do sing

lips all pouty and shimmering wet
she lives and loves without regret

spinning webs in ribbons of light
laid in shadows of darkest night
                  
secrets hid in red red heart
yearning for a love not lived apart

wish she did with all her might
but life alone is her sad plight

and so it is in the forest deep
the heavens sleep

as
the gypsy weeps

Friday, July 16, 2010

in midnight dreams...


in midnight dreams
where everything’s as it seems
and possibilities become love’s only theme
he thinks of her
tastes her sweet lips
and cries her name
in midnight dreams
where everything’s as it seems

and she -
she waits
for him
where taste and possibility are linked
and everything’s as it seems
in midnight dreams

- to JB who remains in my own midnight dreams -

Thursday, July 15, 2010

fire and water...


the soft silky mist
that was him

enveloped the
liquid fire of her soul
surrounding her
holding her gently
caressing her
as her life force
poured into the
estuary of his heart
symbiotically inseparable
neither able to survive alone
sentenced to death if together

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

the prisoner...













my heart is my own prison
i guard me there
hold myself captive there
bound there in chains of love
from its walls i cannot escape
nor shall i ever try

one corner of my heart
is my own garden
filled with lush brilliant flowers
their scent nectar to my soul
their colors my only light
their soft petals my only bed 



my memories of you
my heart's own prison

Monday, July 12, 2010

the love weary blues...


got me a case of
the love weary blues
heart sick and all confused
wonder where you are
want you from afar
wonder who you’re with
is she the fourth or fifth
do you think of me
as we used to be

Sunday, July 11, 2010

lay thee down...


come lay thee down
between my thick slow thighs
and gaze upon me with thine eyes

come lay thee down
upon my weeping heart
and whisper gently we ne'er shall part

Saturday, July 10, 2010

fire in my belly...


fire in my belly just thinkin’ of you
can’t figure out what i’m gonna do

burnin’ yearnin’ deep down inside
just waiting to ride on the crimson tide

fire in my belly
just thinkin’ of you