terra incognita...

she had become homesick

for something quite unknown

something unfamiliar something she seemed

to have known to have felt to have been

some other time some other place

but when or where remained a mystery to her

what or who it was she could not remember

an agnogenic condition for sure but homesick she stayed

and so it was that her nostalgia grew

as did her yearning for that something missing

not complete not whole she could not quite grasp

sadness coupled with longing soon turned to despair

longing for a thing she could not even name despair for a thing unknown

the more she tried to remember to surrender

to the mist of her faded memory

the more embattled her soul

as if some stranger some trespasser

a foreign interloper had quietly and stealthily sneaked

into the deepest recesses of her self

and plucked and plundered till there was no more remaining

no more indeed not even a drop

of what was of what had been of what should still be

that obscure something for which her melancholy grew

and which soon twisted into a weariness begging for resignation

resigning herself to lost recollection to lost recognition

nothing could salvage what was not there

nothing short of divination

and so in her abject morbid meditation

as she sat staring into the nothingness of her days

something caught her eye

an illusion almost an image a manifestation

of something but of what

what was it that she saw there

staring back at her from the other side

slowly ever so slowly she began to see what was

it began to take shape to become -

that something she could not name

began to blossom to grow to regenerate

the skeletal pieces came together

blanketed by a soft pink flesh

under which she could feel

slowly but surely beating - her heart

she glanced furtively upward directly into the eyes of -

of that something she was missing

that she had almost forgotten

that she had nearly lost

the eyes of herSELF -

and then she saw not just the pieces but the whole

the thing for which she had become homesick

the thing unknown unfamiliar

it was her - 
without
him