unfulfilled love - unrequited love - love relinquished - life unlived...

we all are gypsies of a sort wandering traveling through this life other lives space and time here there and yon on roads less traveled - this is a written and visual journal of my own travels - imagined and/or real - come along with me - we'll dance among the stars under the sun and over the moon - we'll share our stories of love around the campfire - come along -

poetry from the heart...


POETRY FROM THE HEART - my own words dedicated to all the words left unspoken, the acts left undone - the love unlived unfulfilled -

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Thursday, December 9, 2010

i surrender...

i have fought far too long
etching memories into my heart
storing them safely
to take them down from
the shelf of what was
to hold them still to caress them
to sniff the fragrance of their time
a time when life was
when love was
when i was
when we were
fearing life unbearable
without the flavor of their reality
i have fought far too long
keeping them alive
keeping them at the surface
of the waters of my mind
where they could remain forever
cellularly connected to the me of me

so that my soul might still survive
the dankness and darkness of
the nothingness of now
the now without you
the now without us
and therefore, the now without me
for what can remain of me
when that part of me that
completed me is gone
is no longer with me
no longer beside me
no longer in me
leaving this
nothingness of now
this absence this void
i have fought far too long
yes, it is true
so now - now -
now - i surrender
i surrender me
i surrender all that was
all that could have been
that should have been
that never can be again
i surrender all
else how might i go on
how might you continue
each not living while alive
each choosing death by life

so i surrender
to love to passion to life
i surrender to us
i shall choose to live
for us both

you there and me here
smiling for what was
weeping not
for what cannot be

yes, i surrender -
i surrender to the
magnificence of now
the magnificence
the now
of love’s holy memories

6 comments:

glynis said...

so powerful and moving, strong words and even stronger emotion. I love this. xo

Trish and Rob MacGregor said...

Another beauty!

Anonymous said...

My dear Cousin, you know these words could, oh so easily and soulfully, been penned by me as well. We journey together, as always. He is gone, taking with him that part of me that let me breathe, and leaving me the legacy of all that could've should've would've been, had our lives, and destiny, allowed. Next Time..... cj

GYPSYWOMAN said...

dear glynis - for me, it's just so so much better to have had and then to be no more than to never ever have had - how can that touch of the divine not have us surrender all! ;)

GYPSYWOMAN said...

thank you trish - just little pieces of me trickling down through time...

GYPSYWOMAN said...

yes, dear cousin, i do know - and thought of you when i re-posted this - how totally this is you, too!
and here's to all those NEXT TIMES! ;)